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They make us feel good partly because they tell a story that we want to hear. Or, to put it more bluntly, they tell a story that embraces traditional values and conformity. These stories therefore feed into the larger social narrative that, if you want to be pretty, you need to be thin. If you want to be happy, you need to be thin.

And if you are both happy and pretty, then you might be lucky enough to be desired by a man and find the ultimate happiness through a heterosexual relationship that conforms to social norms. But Roxane Gay affirms that the messages of these stories are incredibly toxic!

Her story is honest, sad, and real. How much did you understand about life when you were 12 years old? How much did you know about your changing body or your budding sexuality? How much did you know about consent for sexual activity? And Roxane Gay was no exception to that norm. Roxane grew up as the daughter of middle-class Haitian immigrants. She was also raised as a devout Catholic and she understood that this upbringing came with a certain set of rules and expectations.

She knew that her parents expected her to do the right thing, to be a good person, and to do her best in school. Her parents taught her that Jesus loved her, but пїЅ like most Christian parents пїЅ they also taught that God punishes sin. Unsurprisingly, she also grew up with little knowledge about sexuality and sexual consent. So, when her crush lured her to a cabin in the woods, year-old Roxane went with him willingly.

She was excited that he wanted to spend time with her. She was hopeful that he liked her back. She had no idea that his friends were lurking in the cabin, waiting to hold her down and help him gang-rape her. And that was when all of her problems started. In an interview with NPR, she described her experience by saying:. I was stunned and I just assumed, "OK, we just had sex. I didn't realize that there was a vocabulary to describe the experience, and that it wasn't my fault. I thought I didn't fight enough, I didn't get away, and so I was complicitin what happened.

My year-old self thought, "Oh, I must've asked for this. To this day, I don't know how I was able to cover up what happened. I just remember sneaking up to my room and doing my best to hide my clothes and to hide myself for as long as I could, to just try and pull myself together, and I did, because I was a really good kid.

I did what I was supposed to, and I think when you're a really good kid, you know how to play that role, and you know how to hide that anything is wrong. A secret starts out small sometimes, but then it gets bigger and bigger and bigger, and it becomes scarier and scarier to imagine ever sharing it with someone. So the longer I kept the secret to myself, the more dire the consequences became for me, or the more dire I perceived the consequences of revealing my secret became.

I was 12, so my fears were really that I was going to get in trouble and that I was going to go to hell, because I had had premarital sex.

We were Catholic, and very devout Catholics. And though my parents raised us with the understanding that god was a god of love, I was really terrified nonetheless. The boys' version of the story was that it was my choice and that I wanted it and that I initiated it. The other students in school believed it.

I walked into class, I think it was French class, and I was sitting in my seat and the kid behind me tapped my shoulder and said, "You're a slut. I didn't engage at all, I just shut down completely. I would go to class and try to hide in class by sitting in the back, and I would just endure the taunts and then eventually, as it is in middle school, the story moved on, but my reputation never changed.

I was still an outcast, I was still a loser. Left to deal with her pain and confusion on her own, year-old Roxane devised her own coping mechanisms. She recalls that although no one ever told her fat women were completely undesirable, she had absorbed this message through her own observations about society. So, she decided that if she wanted to be safe, she needed to be fat. And not just a little bit overweight пїЅ she needed to be so fat that no man would ever desire her again.

She needed to be so fat that she became invisible. The author observes that, for many people, fatness is an unwanted side effect of some other life circumstance.

In most cases, people who are unhappy with their weight did not actively work to become fat. Her parents, alarmed by her rapid weight gain, sent her to fat camp. But Roxane viewed this as another attempt to control her body, just as her rapists had. So, as soon as she lost the weight, she put it right back on. The boys in the woods had taken my body and they broke it. I will never get that body back, and I hate that, because it was a good body. But they took it; they ruined it.

And so, when I ate, I got to make my body into what I wanted it to be, which is a fortress. You still deal with the shit, but it's nowhere near as much. When I'm with my hot friends, the amount of catcalling they deal with, well, I deal with a tenth of that.

But it's weird that I even have to deal with it at all. I kept thinking, during my crazier years, 'Where is the point where I will no longer be catcalled? And that's not healthy, and I've changed. But I definitely was looking for that point, and I haven't found it. She was in her late twenties at that time. But a lot of things happened before she reached that point. This book is very different from books that seek to help and falsely inspire you by expressing personal experiences.

A book is definitely a good book, but not a key! Writing this book is a confession. These are the ugliest, weakest, most naked parts of my being. This is my truth. This is the story of the body me because, most of the time, the stories of bodies like my body are either ignored, rejected, or ridiculed.

People see bodies like mine and make hypotheses for themselves. They think they know the reason for my obesity. This is not a victory story, but a story that needs to be told and deserves to be heard.

Since this book is not the story of a victory, we realize that the book we have in our hands is not going to have a happy ending! It is not supposed to be a source of inspiration and full of so-called positive energy and slogans, hunger is not a self-healing book, in the best definition, it is the truth and pure reality.

So is life itself. We all know that life is sometimes cruel and how hard it can be on us. You may ask why I read a book that I know is not going to reach a promising conclusion?

Because that is the reality of life! We must not deceive ourselves with the words of a happy heart, we must understand the truth of life and accept that we can not change it completely, and this book shakes our souls so that apart from understanding human beings and society, we can as far as we can from me.

So the bitterness of this book is itself the best tool for changing us and perhaps the most powerful tool for understanding us. He has decided to recount everything, completely, and wants to show you the amount of pain he has suffered by showing the most personal aspects of his life. He has done this well! By showing that we are not human, also he should torment us and flip us over all the misconceptions and rejections and wrong standards that have made society, and there is no escape from them.

The many examples he cites from his life moments show how much we are unaware of the aspects of human life and personal problems and how much we act without thinking.

Blaming ourselves seems to be a burden on us, this unreasonable blaming seems to point the finger of blame at our conscience that we caused this exemplary human being to suffer like this. In fact, it can be said that if the book can not affect you, you should be worried about the weakening of your inner human image!

The main theme of the book is the fear of not being loved and being alone. What social frameworks do with our lives goes so far as to blame ourselves even though we know we did not do wrong, and then to make up for this guilt and guilt by accepting and accepting every action and every word. How much have we kept our true selves and how much have we deliberately, forcefully and painfully asked to change it? Who have we transformed ourselves into in order to be in the preconceived notions of society?

A man who cries alone and stands before the judgment of a weak and silent society and forcibly smiles while his heart is being torn.

Hunger is a book that, apart from being biographical, can be studied and discussed in terms of: education, community policy, psychology and ethics. The hunger that the author breathes is not the only craving to quench the appetite! It is a desire we have as human beings to be seen and accepted, to not be alone and to be understood, to feel safe, so if you have felt just as hungry, do not give up reading the book of hunger.

We can not easily judge people without thinking about their past and personal lives. I hope we can no longer set boundaries or frameworks and remember what a bitter and painful life people living outside of this framework must experience because we have rejected their chests. And if that did not happen and this book did not affect us, woe to us! Woe to our minds and souls that are even heavier and more cruel than life. Reading this book also conveys the power and courage of the author to us.

Although the author may not even be content to call himself bold! But reading all this recklessness and the desire to tell the bitterest facts without fear, the feedback of this splitting of life, gives the reader a lot of courage. The reader realizes that he is not the only one who carries all this heavy burden of cruelty with him, he realizes that he is not alone and how painful it is not to be alone for the first time. Perhaps knowing this loneliness gave the author the courage to write his biography at this age and after all these years, for all those who accepted the rejection, for all those who were afraid to tell what had happened to them.

Roxanne is the voice of all these people, the voice that rose with power and expressed the reality of his life and brought us to ourselves. I recommend reading this book to all serious and non-serious readers of the book, even if you have never been interested in biography, let this book be the first biography that affects your life!

Do not easily miss this author. The translation of this book is brilliant and powerful. The translator has also been in contact with the author via email, which has added to the accuracy and responsibility of the translation.

Also, the footnotes of the book, which are all written by the translator, are very accurate, precise and well done. Congratulations to Mr.

I hope that this book will be read and that the readers, under the influence of the opium of this book, will reconsider their personal and social social life. And hunger will surely keep your mind busy for a long time and it will not be easy to resume the next study!

This is what most girls are taught пїЅ that we should be small and elegant. We should not occupy space. We must be seen and not heard, and when we are seen, we must please men, we must be liked by society. And most women know that we are not expected to be exposed, but that is something that needs to be said out loud, over and over again, so that we can resist giving in to what is expected of us.

The Book of Hunger пїЅ Page I am not brave or heroic. I am a woman who has experienced something that countless women have experienced.

I am the victim who was saved. It could have been worse, much worse. What matters, and even more shocking, is that such a story is quite common. The Book of Hunger пїЅ Page 43 When you gain weight, when you lose weight, or when you maintain an unacceptable weight, your body is a subject for comment. People are quick to provide statistics and information about the dangers of obesity, as if you were not only obese, but also surprisingly stupid, ignorant, and delusional about the facts of your body and the world with which it is so unkind.

These comments are often expressed in the form of concern, in the form that people just want the best for you. They forget that you are a human being. You are your body, nothing more, and your body must be much smaller.

Every time I see this particular ad, I think, I ate that skinny woman and she was delicious but she was not satisfied. And then I think how nonsensical it is to promote the notion that the truest of us are skinny women hiding inside our fat bodies like swindlers, usurpers, and illegitimate people.

My father thinks hunger is dependent on the mind. I have a different opinion. In my opinion, hunger depends on the mind, body, heart and soul. I do not insult myself when I use that word. Related books. Show only reviews in English 0. Your email address will not be published.

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